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Stagnant living.The repetition drones on, Forever repeating itself into carbon copy days.
An ironic redundancy reiterating the already known, the already shown.
Each day lived again, though with less living than each before.
Each day comes with a known and expected outcome.
I know this having already seen the reruns.
This movie, this record is broken and stuck on repeat,
Stuck on repeat,
Stuck on repeat.
Each day feeling incomplete.
Forever substantial but never concrete.
I am ready for the defeat.
Though not my own as I stand on these feet.
I stand strong as I find my bearings,
Removing the eyes of disillusion that I've been wearing.
By my will I am compelled to step, to gain momentum.
In this world of stagnantly static living,
I find myself moving again.
For I am no prisoner, no slave,
No longer mindless, once again brave.
These birds around my neck pull tight like a noose,
Anxiously I wait to cut them both loose.
To break free of this grave constructed by water, steel and time.
Pulled forth by the
Musical bliss...Like a fisherman, with your hooks in my ears. I follow your pull. I know not where it leads, nor do I care. The lure of it all, so enticing, so surreal. A better world will you lead me to. A world of weightlessness, a world of beauty and contentment. The orchestrated joy, the perfectly arranged happiness; I want nothing other than to remain in such a place for my remaining existence. For the finite number of days I have, I want them spent well. For each passing second I waste, for only a set amount have I ever carried, not being in such a world is a waste and nothing more.
Divine in its creation, but humble and accessible to all. Some will never know of this world, many will take it for granted and the few will know and experience its entirety...
The LightThe tiny light, such a minuscule glow off in the distance, it finds faith in every shadow, in every corner or its world. The darkness gives it a purpose, forever moving, forever filling those places once cold and dull with warmth and vibrancy. It carries hope with its light as it moves. It brings a sense of happiness to places once void of such...
...As time moves on, so too will the light. Every shadow returns, the darkness seeks its natural and preferred home. The hope, the warmth, the life will all move on with the glow. The darkness and sense of isolation replaces it with far greater impact than before. Forever in memories will the now lost light remain, as will the memories of what once was. When concentration on memories inevitably switches to realization of the present, only regret, pain, loss and darkness will be left....
...Once my light, once my warmth, once my hope you too have moved on. While moving on I will continue to do, I still don't want to experience loss again. No l
LostI no longer hold the map, the path has grown over and the stars are misaligned.
The trees all new, the road behind is gone and I can no longer see the signs.
Nothing remarkable, nothing to notice, the darkness leaks in.
As the light escapes, so too do the tears from the hold of my eyes.
The silence is powerful, for it penetrates deeper than any noise could.
The feeling of being separated is worsened by being surrounded by so much.
A chance to return or even to escape it all holds my hopes daily.
A watch here matters not, due to time nearly standing still.
A pause which is further lengthened by the knowledge of what remains.
When words become useless and music evokes nothing, and when thoughts do little
It is fear that initiates its coup. Despair flanks flawlessly. There is no defense, no hope to resist.
The battle is lost, as I am as well.
ConversationHow many hours have been spent just having conversations?
Too few, to be sure, yet already too many to count.
Entire days of exchange, so many hours flown by.
Never a minute of it wasted, even in the pauses we spoke.
Despite our connection, our wonderful cohesion,
Disagreements still occurred and frustrations still felt,
Although forgiveness was never far behind.
For you are my muse, my inspiration,
and you'll forever hold a place both in my heart and in my mind.
Of all that I've tried to connect with,
You, for certain, have been the easiest and most challenging all at once.
NullA challenge, A struggle,
Too much for this mind.
A constant devotion,
No time to unwind.
No time to reflect, No time to create,
No more hope or dreams of success to deflate.
Entirely hopeless, Completely Lost.
This employment brings money, but at what real cost.
A laymen among scholars, a peasant among kings.
A dull lusterless accessory among solid gold rings.
My efforts mean little, a percentage of a percent.
Yet this drive I'll continue, despite being spent.
Every single day, all effort applied,
Yet in this constant cycle, all progress denied.
Trial and error, with far more of the latter,
Trying with all when it seems not to matter.
A lesson to be taught, with knowledge to gain,
Daily fights with this info only carry in pain.
Stupidity is felt and known to be mine,
All others putting forth, all pulling through fine.
An amazing opportunity, for those who deserve it,
While perhaps not an idiot, Here I truly don't fit.
Lilies of Snow. They met at the foot
Of a mountain,
Where they grow,
The lilies of snow.
By the brook,
At the crystal fountain,
They let their feelings
And they did flow,
Like a river,
With a charming, golden
Two lovers, bound by
Two gentle lilies of
BerechnendWenn ich einen
Strich ziehe, wenn
ich uns subtrahiere,
zähle, kalkuliere sind
wir doch keine
Es ist als
Und doch gehöre
ich zu dir wie
das x zum
y und hoffe
sind und unsere
I don't need your love. (Poem)I don't need your love.
I should have been lethally heartbroken,
I should have killed my love for you
I should have slowly died.
I choose to love you even more!
I don't need your passionated love.
I don't need your kind words
I don't your affection
I don't need your love!
Don't I need your loving and caring kisses?
Don't I need to feel us as one?
Don't I need your fondness?
No, not at all..
'cause I'm feeling alive!
Your smile takes my breath away with a warm sensation.
Your company makes me feel so buoyantly
Your eyes electrifies me
most of all..
You are my life-essence.
If only I can make you laugh and smile even more.
If only I can be a friend of yours
If only I can see your being
never be needing anyone else.
How much love?Ile miłości w "kocham"
Ile zazdrości w "ufam"
Ile cierpienia w "jestem"
Niezrozumienia w "słucham"
Ile prawdy w "miłuję"
Ile kłamstwa w "nie czuję"
Obojętności w "przepraszam"
Braku pewności w "żałuję"
Ile w "patrzę" - "dostrzegam"
Ile w "daję" - "zastrzegam"
Ile w "będę" - "na zawsze"
Ile w "proszę" - "nalegam"
Nieporadności w "płaczę"
Cierpliwości w "tłumaczę"
Egoizmu w kompromisie
Przywiązania w "wybaczę"
Ile w związkach przewrotności
Ile pytań, niejasności
Ile razy tracisz wiarę
Znów chcesz oddać się miłości
RequitedWhen I started to fall for you
I felt as if I was being lifted
Straight from the ashes
Of my heart.
As I rise
I saw your light
Reflecting from my glasses.
They used to block the sunlight,
Now they’ve bloomed into roses.
When you started to fall for me
I started to fall for myself.
I don’t mind hitting the ground
If you are there with me.
I feel so enamored for
All the scars I haven’t shown.
We are not together but
At least we’re not alone.
Un Nuevo amor parte 5 KeyStarluck bajo sus manos hasta las piernas de key y acaricio suavemente el trasero de key
Key: *silencio y ruborizado* m...
Starluck:*quitandole el pantalon* *acariciando la piel desnuda de key* dime key...
Key: ? S--sí..
Starluck: eres ..virgen..? *Apretando las piernas de key...*
Key: este- si...jamas eh echo esto...
Starluck: de acuerdo quieres aprender? ...
Key: em...está bien..*poniéndose Encima de el*
Starluck: *sacando su pene* ahora si has lo que quieras...
Key: ha....*dándole un par de besos en el cuello**y bajando hasta su pene*
Starluck: haa.....*tapándose la cara* Lo--haces bien ..ha!!
Key: *chupando el pene completo*
Starluck: voy...ha...*corriéndose en la boca de key*
Key: ha...*tragándose todo* sus ojos brillando rojisos*
Starluck: termino la leccion *poniendose encima de el*
Key: *besandolo y acariciando su rostro* starluck.....
Starluck: *sacando el pene de key* Esto puede doler...
Key: cu---anto?? *respirando muy fuerte y rápido
Un Nuevo amor parte 4 KeyStarluck: bueno es mejor que vallas con tu madre key..*soltándolo*
Key: si...Iré...*sus ojos brillaron mientras sonreía*
Starluck: *este chico es bastante lindo* ... Key fue hasta donde estaba toshi con la tía sayumi..
Toshi: sayumi como puede ser que estés aun peleada con rapha son matrimonio..
Sayumi: lose...pero raphael debe aprender que no soy solo de el también tengo derecho a hablar con cualquier otro chico obviamente respetando mi matrimonio*tomándose la cabeza* Esto es un coñaso...
Key: mamá... tía sayumi...puedo hablar.. Con ustedes...?*tímido*
Toshi: key...si claro hijo ven....
Sayumi: que pasa cariño??
Key: yo...bueno...quiero hablarles de...me gusta alguien...
Toshi: ohm ya veo...
Sayumi: muy bien keyy *golpeando su codo contra él..*
Toshi: es alguien que conozca hijo?
Key: si mamá es....starluck....
Sayumi: *mirándolo* pero... key...él es mucho mayor que tu...
Toshi: hijo...estas seguro?
A New Love Part 3 key* after a while the fight was stopped * so * key left his room and went to the boys * Toshi: son .... see you do to your room ..
Key: Mom ... Where is Starluck?
Toshi: Starluck is in the kitchen ....
Key: Raphael and uncle ...?
Toshi: is in his room with sayumi ..
Key: mama you do and that box of first aid ....
Toshi: I took him to Starluck is a little hurt .... Key: I'll take it ..... I will be with him for a while .... well it will not hurt me .... you know me .. look .. * happy *
Toshi: key is fine but if something happens just call .... I'll see what your father is doing ...
Key: okay mom ... * key goes where the kitchen and go .... to Starluck hurt a bit * closer *
Key: Starluck okay? You have not .... hurt elsewhere ???
Starluck: eeehh .... no ... Do not worry just hit me body parts but this is nothing .....
Key: Well my mother I leave this box first aid ....
Starluck: tell your mom thanks ....
Key: It's fine ... I'll tell aaammm .... you want me to help?
Starluck: no need I can
Un Nuevo amor parte 3 Key*después en un rato la pelea había parado* *así que key salió de su habitación y fue a donde los chicos* Toshi: hijo que haces ve....a tu habitación..
Key: mamá... Donde esta starluck?
Toshi: starluck está en la cocina....
Key: y el tío Raphael?...
Toshi: está en su habitación con sayumi..
Key: mama que haces y esa caja de primero auxilio....
Toshi: se lo llevo a starluck está un poco herido.... Key: se lo llevo yo.....yo estaré con él un rato....además no me hará daño....ya me conoce.... * mirada feliz*
Toshi: está bien key pero si pasa algo solo llámanos....voy a ver lo que está haciendo tu padre...
Key: está bien madre... * key va adonde la cocina y ve.... a starluck un poco herido* *acercándose*
Key: starluck estas bien? .... no te has lastimado en otra parte???
Starluck: eeehh....no...No te preocupes solo me pego una partes del cuerpo pero esto no es nada.....
Key: bueno m
My Tears, Your SmileThe light in your eyes
Be the darkness demise
Your smile I seek
For without it I'm weak
Your hug, your embrace
I'll never find a better place
The moments of your tears
The most paramount of my fears
You were all I could ask for, I wish I could have been the same.
That, I failed, for mere mortality and imperfection to blame.
You deserved so much more, someone better, a god among men.
I hope you find them, I hope your happiness remains then.
My apologies that I couldn't have met your needs.
The loss that I feel pains, my heart, it bleeds.
Yet I find comfort knowing that you seek who you deserve.
May your journey be quick, your path direct, never swerve.
I accept my hurt so that your smile may stay.
Every tear of my own, a more than adequate pay.
A dream you were among a sea of nightmares.
You are missed, You were special, You were all of my cares.
I wish you the best.
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