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Stagnant living.The repetition drones on, Forever repeating itself into carbon copy days.
An ironic redundancy reiterating the already known, the already shown.
Each day lived again, though with less living than each before.
Each day comes with a known and expected outcome.
I know this having already seen the reruns.
This movie, this record is broken and stuck on repeat,
Stuck on repeat,
Stuck on repeat.
Each day feeling incomplete.
Forever substantial but never concrete.
I am ready for the defeat.
Though not my own as I stand on these feet.
I stand strong as I find my bearings,
Removing the eyes of disillusion that I've been wearing.
By my will I am compelled to step, to gain momentum.
In this world of stagnantly static living,
I find myself moving again.
For I am no prisoner, no slave,
No longer mindless, once again brave.
These birds around my neck pull tight like a noose,
Anxiously I wait to cut them both loose.
To break free of this grave constructed by water, steel and time.
Pulled forth by the
Musical bliss...Like a fisherman, with your hooks in my ears. I follow your pull. I know not where it leads, nor do I care. The lure of it all, so enticing, so surreal. A better world will you lead me to. A world of weightlessness, a world of beauty and contentment. The orchestrated joy, the perfectly arranged happiness; I want nothing other than to remain in such a place for my remaining existence. For the finite number of days I have, I want them spent well. For each passing second I waste, for only a set amount have I ever carried, not being in such a world is a waste and nothing more.
Divine in its creation, but humble and accessible to all. Some will never know of this world, many will take it for granted and the few will know and experience its entirety...
The LightThe tiny light, such a minuscule glow off in the distance, it finds faith in every shadow, in every corner or its world. The darkness gives it a purpose, forever moving, forever filling those places once cold and dull with warmth and vibrancy. It carries hope with its light as it moves. It brings a sense of happiness to places once void of such...
...As time moves on, so too will the light. Every shadow returns, the darkness seeks its natural and preferred home. The hope, the warmth, the life will all move on with the glow. The darkness and sense of isolation replaces it with far greater impact than before. Forever in memories will the now lost light remain, as will the memories of what once was. When concentration on memories inevitably switches to realization of the present, only regret, pain, loss and darkness will be left....
...Once my light, once my warmth, once my hope you too have moved on. While moving on I will continue to do, I still don't want to experience loss again. No l
LostI no longer hold the map, the path has grown over and the stars are misaligned.
The trees all new, the road behind is gone and I can no longer see the signs.
Nothing remarkable, nothing to notice, the darkness leaks in.
As the light escapes, so too do the tears from the hold of my eyes.
The silence is powerful, for it penetrates deeper than any noise could.
The feeling of being separated is worsened by being surrounded by so much.
A chance to return or even to escape it all holds my hopes daily.
A watch here matters not, due to time nearly standing still.
A pause which is further lengthened by the knowledge of what remains.
When words become useless and music evokes nothing, and when thoughts do little
It is fear that initiates its coup. Despair flanks flawlessly. There is no defense, no hope to resist.
The battle is lost, as I am as well.
ConversationHow many hours have been spent just having conversations?
Too few, to be sure, yet already too many to count.
Entire days of exchange, so many hours flown by.
Never a minute of it wasted, even in the pauses we spoke.
Despite our connection, our wonderful cohesion,
Disagreements still occurred and frustrations still felt,
Although forgiveness was never far behind.
For you are my muse, my inspiration,
and you'll forever hold a place both in my heart and in my mind.
Of all that I've tried to connect with,
You, for certain, have been the easiest and most challenging all at once.
NullA challenge, A struggle,
Too much for this mind.
A constant devotion,
No time to unwind.
No time to reflect, No time to create,
No more hope or dreams of success to deflate.
Entirely hopeless, Completely Lost.
This employment brings money, but at what real cost.
A laymen among scholars, a peasant among kings.
A dull lusterless accessory among solid gold rings.
My efforts mean little, a percentage of a percent.
Yet this drive I'll continue, despite being spent.
Every single day, all effort applied,
Yet in this constant cycle, all progress denied.
Trial and error, with far more of the latter,
Trying with all when it seems not to matter.
A lesson to be taught, with knowledge to gain,
Daily fights with this info only carry in pain.
Stupidity is felt and known to be mine,
All others putting forth, all pulling through fine.
An amazing opportunity, for those who deserve it,
While perhaps not an idiot, Here I truly don't fit.
OneLoved so long, you are a part of me,
Enveloping my soul and heart,
Wrapped in comfort,
Enmeshed in hope,
LovelyWhen we met that day,
You took my breath away,
When you kissed me first,
You became my verse,
And I now think this is how life is suppose to be,
With me holding you and you holding me,
You held the golden key,
That simply set me free,
And I hope this is how we will stay,
Because I wouldn't want it any other way.
Messages in a Bottle...Darling...
These vast oceans.
From these lands.
A lone soul.
In need of rescue...
Would be truly.
If you are here.
As if you may never appear.
And my heart.
That I've sent.
In a bottle.
Wrapped in tender and love...
My heartbeatMy heart beats for you
Telling me this must be real
I want to tell you the truth
I want to tell you exactly how I feel.
You are amazing, you're like no other
You really know just how to make me smile
You're so caring, you make my heart flutter
A day so rough, to come home to you, makes it all worthwhile.
You truly carry an "aura"
That makes me feel alive
My life's meaning soars a
Thousand miles high.
To me, you're everything
Most men don't understand
But they'll feel the sting
When they see us hand-in-hand.
I want to make you happy
It's the least I can do
You bring me so much joy
I want you to feel it too.
I'm so lucky to know you, but
I've always wanted it to be more
You'd complete my life, what
Would I ever need if I had the one I adore?
My heart beats for you
Telling me this must be true
You make a little enough
You're the one I love.
UnderwaterLove is like a shell:
put your ear in it,
so you hear the sea.
Sea itself is love,
strong, majestic, and
I can't wait to swim
again, inside that
I'm second best...These thoughts going through my head
They do more damage than they seem
Who is that guy, that you said
Is the man of your dreams…?
You talk about him, praise him, claim that you love him
Is he really everything you say he is?
Even the worst of us may seem attractive
In the eyes of the naïve.
They tell me love is blind
This may be true
My question is of the unanswerable kind
Which one of us does it refer to?
Seems I’ll always be “second best”
Your “next best option”
That hurts more than you can guess
It’s beginning to corrupt my conscience.
How did I end up like this in the first place?
You’re perfect, flawless, unmatched
A wonderful personality and a gorgeous face
I consider you quite a catch.
I’d do anything for you
Just to make you feel happy within
I’d give my life for you…
…but of course…there’s him
I don’t care if you take him over me
As long as he treats you well
As long as he makes you
FantasyI'm bleeding pools of red wine
Drink this intoxicating mist
Fall into a dream with me at your side
Seal this humble fantasy with a passionate kiss
Hold me close, or turn away, just don't leave me alone
Close you eyes, yes, it will be bright
Prepare for us to blinded and hot
I'm going to play with fire tonight
In the end, you know we'll both have to fall
Until the fateful disgrace, we'll continue living, lusting, loving
You shan't wander, we'll stick to each other
We'll find paradise in all this world's endless shoving
Until the day we hang and lie six feet deep
Our love will prevail, triumphing over the infidels
Touch me softly like you always have
Make me moan, make me yell
Humiliated, the both of us, yet unashamed
In beautiful union, two as one
We'll be in heaven, we'll be radiant
Long, long before the night is done
Spring LostI still dream of you
All green eyes and curls
You haunt my subconscious
Until my head's aswirl
And even though I have love again
And children I adore
I can't help but think about
The love I had before
Frozen forever in youth
A love a fresh as spring
Never to be tarnished
And that's all it will ever be
My Tears, Your SmileThe light in your eyes
Be the darkness demise
Your smile I seek
For without it I'm weak
Your hug, your embrace
I'll never find a better place
The moments of your tears
The most paramount of my fears
You were all I could ask for, I wish I could have been the same.
That, I failed, for mere mortality and imperfection to blame.
You deserved so much more, someone better, a god among men.
I hope you find them, I hope your happiness remains then.
My apologies that I couldn't have met your needs.
The loss that I feel pains, my heart, it bleeds.
Yet I find comfort knowing that you seek who you deserve.
May your journey be quick, your path direct, never swerve.
I accept my hurt so that your smile may stay.
Every tear of my own, a more than adequate pay.
A dream you were among a sea of nightmares.
You are missed, You were special, You were all of my cares.
I wish you the best.
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